I moved. I hear that's how it works, or something.
Honestly? I'm just getting tired of using a different email account for my blog than anything else. New last name, new blog.
http://stephanieparnell.wordpress.com/
Friday, September 19, 2008
Too Blue to Entertain You
This has been a majorly 'blah' week for me. My attitude is fairly rotten, and belongs in the garbage. I would like to be able to blame it on those lovely 3 letters women were raised to believe are a valid excuse for all things crabby...but that's just not the case. I have my ideas, but I don't like those either. Ignore and Deny, my newest best friends.
I think I got some decent sleep last night, because I'm feeling slightly better today. I woke up feeling like I was never going to be fully alive again EV-AR, and here I am at 10am feeling alright with the world. Oh roller coaster, why can't I quit you?
I do feel bad for my attitude last night. My poor husband...he had an amazing day, was obviously in an amazing mood, and obviously super stoked to just be by my side last night. I could not seem to get a grip, not fair to him at all. Has anyone else noticed that it's a rare day when both significant others are in an equally good mood? It's usually that one person had a terrible day and the other had an amazing day, am I right? The best days, the heartiest laughs, the biggest smiles, the squeeziest hugs? Those are the rare day that we both are in wonderful moods and we love eachother more than words. Okay, that's not exactly fair to say. I love him more than words every day, I just don't choose to show him that I love him more than words every day.
I gotta get a grip. I gotta get some sleep. And I got a plan. But don't hold your breath, I'm certainly not holding mine.
p.s. Thank God for awesome customers who can lighten this day. I feel like Anne of Green Gables and I just met my bosom friend.
I think I got some decent sleep last night, because I'm feeling slightly better today. I woke up feeling like I was never going to be fully alive again EV-AR, and here I am at 10am feeling alright with the world. Oh roller coaster, why can't I quit you?
I do feel bad for my attitude last night. My poor husband...he had an amazing day, was obviously in an amazing mood, and obviously super stoked to just be by my side last night. I could not seem to get a grip, not fair to him at all. Has anyone else noticed that it's a rare day when both significant others are in an equally good mood? It's usually that one person had a terrible day and the other had an amazing day, am I right? The best days, the heartiest laughs, the biggest smiles, the squeeziest hugs? Those are the rare day that we both are in wonderful moods and we love eachother more than words. Okay, that's not exactly fair to say. I love him more than words every day, I just don't choose to show him that I love him more than words every day.
I gotta get a grip. I gotta get some sleep. And I got a plan. But don't hold your breath, I'm certainly not holding mine.
p.s. Thank God for awesome customers who can lighten this day. I feel like Anne of Green Gables and I just met my bosom friend.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Blogging: A Habit Not Worth Giving Up
Four whole days since I've blogged. I have had so many snippets of interest to say, but I never know how to compose them into one solidly written blog. I could always do bullets...but that should be saved for LiveJournal because, not so much.
This week has been really long and tiresome. I have slept fairly well, but wake up feeling like a zombie. I can't seem to get out of the fog, no matter how many cups of coffee or glasses of green tea I drink. This past weekend just exhausted me and we haven't had time to play catch up. I had gotten in the habit of getting up when Brad went downstairs and packing his lunch and saying goodbye. Once he left I would do the dishes and fold any laundry that needed to be folded and then check my blog rolls, email and then get logged in for work. But this past week I have found it difficult to get up. I usually wander downstairs about 5 minutes later than he does and he is usually already packing his lunch. I say goodbye to him and can't find the energy to do the dishes or fold laundry, promising I'll do it after I get off work (I have an hour and a half before work, and an hour and a half before he gets home from work). I end up doing it half-heartedly and usually only half the job gets finished. I finally got my butt in gear this morning, but that's because it's Friday and we are having company tomorrow...I want to sleep in tomorrow and not stress over cleaning before cooking dinner and making dessert; I figure the more I finish today, the less I have to do tomorrow. I know this won't last long...but I'm ready for that one night of sleep that will fix me.
I think I have finally figured out why blogging can be sometimes difficult for me. It is because, a blog seems to either be about something negative or positive and never just general. That could be because of my outlook on things, or just because my life is pretty boring, unless something terrible happens or something exciting happens. It's easy to write about the happy things (marriage, love, family) and easy to write about the things that make me exceptionally angry....but it's not easy to write about the mundane. So I guess my point is...I'm tired of the mundane. I want my life to be exciting all the time, even if it's not the most comfortable. I want something to write about! I want a life worth writing about every single day....because it's just that interesting! Now comes the scary part, the part where I figure out that what I just asked for and pleaded for can actually suck sometimes. Boy, I sure am picky :)
So I've received a few suggestions on this wonderful attempt we are making to begin expanding our family. I'll spare you a few of the suggestions because, eww and umm, DUH. But I did decide to start taking my temperature each morning to determine when I am truly....ripe [the word "ovulating" kinda' makes me cringe]. Before you go getting your panties in a wad, it's a normal thermometer and definately not the kind you are probably thinking. I mean, do they even MAKE those kinds of thermometers? Don't tell me, I don't wanna know. Ew.
So in closing, I'm tired and I'm tired of the roller coaster and we're trying to make babies (or even just one.). The End.
This week has been really long and tiresome. I have slept fairly well, but wake up feeling like a zombie. I can't seem to get out of the fog, no matter how many cups of coffee or glasses of green tea I drink. This past weekend just exhausted me and we haven't had time to play catch up. I had gotten in the habit of getting up when Brad went downstairs and packing his lunch and saying goodbye. Once he left I would do the dishes and fold any laundry that needed to be folded and then check my blog rolls, email and then get logged in for work. But this past week I have found it difficult to get up. I usually wander downstairs about 5 minutes later than he does and he is usually already packing his lunch. I say goodbye to him and can't find the energy to do the dishes or fold laundry, promising I'll do it after I get off work (I have an hour and a half before work, and an hour and a half before he gets home from work). I end up doing it half-heartedly and usually only half the job gets finished. I finally got my butt in gear this morning, but that's because it's Friday and we are having company tomorrow...I want to sleep in tomorrow and not stress over cleaning before cooking dinner and making dessert; I figure the more I finish today, the less I have to do tomorrow. I know this won't last long...but I'm ready for that one night of sleep that will fix me.
I think I have finally figured out why blogging can be sometimes difficult for me. It is because, a blog seems to either be about something negative or positive and never just general. That could be because of my outlook on things, or just because my life is pretty boring, unless something terrible happens or something exciting happens. It's easy to write about the happy things (marriage, love, family) and easy to write about the things that make me exceptionally angry....but it's not easy to write about the mundane. So I guess my point is...I'm tired of the mundane. I want my life to be exciting all the time, even if it's not the most comfortable. I want something to write about! I want a life worth writing about every single day....because it's just that interesting! Now comes the scary part, the part where I figure out that what I just asked for and pleaded for can actually suck sometimes. Boy, I sure am picky :)
So I've received a few suggestions on this wonderful attempt we are making to begin expanding our family. I'll spare you a few of the suggestions because, eww and umm, DUH. But I did decide to start taking my temperature each morning to determine when I am truly....ripe [the word "ovulating" kinda' makes me cringe]. Before you go getting your panties in a wad, it's a normal thermometer and definately not the kind you are probably thinking. I mean, do they even MAKE those kinds of thermometers? Don't tell me, I don't wanna know. Ew.
So in closing, I'm tired and I'm tired of the roller coaster and we're trying to make babies (or even just one.). The End.
Monday, September 8, 2008
6 Whole Months, You Complete Me.
Yesterday was our 6 month anniversary (Dating, of course. We've been married for almost 2 months now). It seems so weird that someone I see every single day and love so deeply (that it can only be displayed through my eyes and in our most intimate moments) has only been a part of my life for 6 months. It's amazing how ready my heart was for him, and also how ready his heart was for me. We are both still kind of blown away at our lives and how we now live them together, instead of seperately.
This past weekened we drove up to Maryland with my parents and brother to go visit family and participate in a surprise birthday party for my grandfather who turned 70. We had a lot of fun together and I can't tell you how many members of my family pulled me to the side to tell me how happy I seem and that Brad already feels like such a part of the family, and that they can't remember what it was like without him or that he fits in so well he may as well have been here all along. I know that has to make him feel good, it sure does make me feel good.
I got to see my cousin and her newest baby, Hayden. The whole trip was a success and it was such a great time seeing my family and things just felt...perfect. My life is complete, that's honestly how he makes me feel. Sure I want a child and to expand our family and all of the wonderful stuff...but I'm so perfectly content that, everything else just seems so much less important than loving this man and being loved.
Pictures and video on Flickr!
This past weekened we drove up to Maryland with my parents and brother to go visit family and participate in a surprise birthday party for my grandfather who turned 70. We had a lot of fun together and I can't tell you how many members of my family pulled me to the side to tell me how happy I seem and that Brad already feels like such a part of the family, and that they can't remember what it was like without him or that he fits in so well he may as well have been here all along. I know that has to make him feel good, it sure does make me feel good.
I got to see my cousin and her newest baby, Hayden. The whole trip was a success and it was such a great time seeing my family and things just felt...perfect. My life is complete, that's honestly how he makes me feel. Sure I want a child and to expand our family and all of the wonderful stuff...but I'm so perfectly content that, everything else just seems so much less important than loving this man and being loved.
Pictures and video on Flickr!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Weekend Travels, Much to Look Forward To.
Tomorrow we leave for a weekend in Maryland, to [surprise] celebrate my grandfather's 70th birthday. I am really looking forward to it. Not the drive, mind you, but the fun we'll have once we arrive. My family loves Brad and Brad loves my family...so it makes for a lot of fun and laughs when we all get together.
Tomorrow I have the day off, but Brad has to work a half day. So he is leaving his truck with me and taking my car and I will pack our bags, clean our house, and load the truck up. My brother and dad will be riding with us, mom is flying up there today. I'm excited because when we get up there Friday, we turn around leave an hour later to go see 2 of my [third] cousins play a show...they are in a band. It will be a long day, but a fun night.
Saturday we get up and help my [second] cousin get ready for the surprise party for my Pop-pop. That will be an all day event and a lot of fun...save we get no bad weather from Hannah. I don't know what all is planned, but we'll be seeing family we don't get to see too often and it's always a blast when everyone breaks out their guitars and plays some old school country and blue grass (even though I'm not much of a fan...it does takes talent).
Sunday we are going to get up and go to Baltimore to the Blue Moon Cafe, which Brad and I saw featured on Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives. We've been dying to go ever since it was on that show and it looks so delicious. Mom, Dad, and Bri are all going to go too and we will begin our trek back to NC from there. The only thing that bites about this whole trip is that I forgot to take Monday off...I always take Monday off if I made an out of town trip...oops. So that will unfortunately make for a very tiring week next week, but it's all good and totally worth it.
There are things on my mind that I can't stop thinking about, and it would get very old if I continued to blog about them daily. I am practicing self control, but just so you know...I'm thinking about Baby constantly...and I think about Brad even more often than that.
On a final note, I love having a new name after 23 years of the same 'ol common last name...but what do I do about my twitter and my blog? I tried to leave a comment as myself on someone's blog today and it would not let me use my new email address to leave the comment, I had to log in using the email address associated with this blog instead, boohoo whine whine.
Tomorrow I have the day off, but Brad has to work a half day. So he is leaving his truck with me and taking my car and I will pack our bags, clean our house, and load the truck up. My brother and dad will be riding with us, mom is flying up there today. I'm excited because when we get up there Friday, we turn around leave an hour later to go see 2 of my [third] cousins play a show...they are in a band. It will be a long day, but a fun night.
Saturday we get up and help my [second] cousin get ready for the surprise party for my Pop-pop. That will be an all day event and a lot of fun...save we get no bad weather from Hannah. I don't know what all is planned, but we'll be seeing family we don't get to see too often and it's always a blast when everyone breaks out their guitars and plays some old school country and blue grass (even though I'm not much of a fan...it does takes talent).
Sunday we are going to get up and go to Baltimore to the Blue Moon Cafe, which Brad and I saw featured on Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives. We've been dying to go ever since it was on that show and it looks so delicious. Mom, Dad, and Bri are all going to go too and we will begin our trek back to NC from there. The only thing that bites about this whole trip is that I forgot to take Monday off...I always take Monday off if I made an out of town trip...oops. So that will unfortunately make for a very tiring week next week, but it's all good and totally worth it.
There are things on my mind that I can't stop thinking about, and it would get very old if I continued to blog about them daily. I am practicing self control, but just so you know...I'm thinking about Baby constantly...and I think about Brad even more often than that.
On a final note, I love having a new name after 23 years of the same 'ol common last name...but what do I do about my twitter and my blog? I tried to leave a comment as myself on someone's blog today and it would not let me use my new email address to leave the comment, I had to log in using the email address associated with this blog instead, boohoo whine whine.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
I'm in an odd mood today...
me = high maintenance/needy and I don't know how to fix that...but I want to. (Simmer down now, I said this...not him. He says I'm normal.)
Today is a weird day. Last night was an amazing night. I'm ready for Friday so I can clean my house and pack mine and Brad's clothes and go see my family in Maryland. I'm super stoked about possibly making a date trip to Baltimore to visit a cafe that we saw on Food Network one time; captain crunch coated french toast and tasty cream cheese filled crepes...here I come! Hopefully anyway.
Broken dryer. Broken catalytic converter. Cracked and peeling tires. Grinding brakes. Fuzzy television. I think God is telling Brad and I we need to spend more time at home, less time in front of the tv...all while being naked. I think he's also trying to show us how grateful we need to be for the amazing parents he has blessed us with and the well-providing jobs we both have...because otherwise we would be stuck in a very bad way.
I'm so content. I like things how they are. The only change I am looking for is at least in the execution stage, no telling how long that will be though. I'm just so ready for this to happen, my stomach gets tight and my heart beats faster because, come on already! I can't imagine this taking a year or two or even more, and to think people say I am a patient person, psha.
Can I just say this one little thing without it being pointed at anyone in particular? Why do people feel the need to warn about obvious changes and requirements that come along with having a child instead of celebrating along side of? Do people really honestly believe that we have not thought about financing a child, daycare, middle-of-the-night feedings and why-wont-you-stop-crying moments and all of those other wonderful things that come with parenting? Please do not patronize me, I am not naive and I am certainly capable of thinking and processing information just as well as you.
So yes, life is good. Happy wife? check. Happy husband? check. With Child? 'E' for effort.
Today is a weird day. Last night was an amazing night. I'm ready for Friday so I can clean my house and pack mine and Brad's clothes and go see my family in Maryland. I'm super stoked about possibly making a date trip to Baltimore to visit a cafe that we saw on Food Network one time; captain crunch coated french toast and tasty cream cheese filled crepes...here I come! Hopefully anyway.
Broken dryer. Broken catalytic converter. Cracked and peeling tires. Grinding brakes. Fuzzy television. I think God is telling Brad and I we need to spend more time at home, less time in front of the tv...all while being naked. I think he's also trying to show us how grateful we need to be for the amazing parents he has blessed us with and the well-providing jobs we both have...because otherwise we would be stuck in a very bad way.
I'm so content. I like things how they are. The only change I am looking for is at least in the execution stage, no telling how long that will be though. I'm just so ready for this to happen, my stomach gets tight and my heart beats faster because, come on already! I can't imagine this taking a year or two or even more, and to think people say I am a patient person, psha.
Can I just say this one little thing without it being pointed at anyone in particular? Why do people feel the need to warn about obvious changes and requirements that come along with having a child instead of celebrating along side of? Do people really honestly believe that we have not thought about financing a child, daycare, middle-of-the-night feedings and why-wont-you-stop-crying moments and all of those other wonderful things that come with parenting? Please do not patronize me, I am not naive and I am certainly capable of thinking and processing information just as well as you.
So yes, life is good. Happy wife? check. Happy husband? check. With Child? 'E' for effort.
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