Growing up is hard to do...

One thing I've never been good at is losing a friendship that I had every intention of working to keep. To me friendship isn't a whole lot different than a romantic relationship in that, it takes work to maintain. I've lost numerous friendships over the years. I realize that I am only 23 years old, but I've had some really great people in my life in that time. I'm sad to say that none of my NC friendships prior to my last relationship are even remotely close to what they were. Actually, I can only think of one individual that even still speaks to me with any interest at all (Hi, Alec!).
People change, priorities change, location changes, etc....it's all just part of growing up and becoming who you are going to be as an adult.
There have always been those friendships though that are worth working to keep. Unfortunately, the feeling has not been reciprocated. Believe me when I say that I'm not angry about it and I don't lose sleep over it, but it does sting just a little when reflecting on those memories.
I'm going to take it back to the old school and start the list of friends that I think about often, but talk to never.
*Neighborhood Friends*
There was Laura Presimone. We were the bestest and I was, sad to say, the one that screwed that one up. I think about her all the time and would love to see how she is doing these days.
*Liberty Church/Mt. Airy Full Gospel*
Luke...man he was my best friend. He's still around, and we have each other on Facebook, and me and his sister still talk, and his parents come down every year for 4th of July...and all that good stuff. But man, I miss the Luke that I knew. Granted, we were like...13. And really, how can a 23 year old miss a friendship from one of the most awkward and underdeveloped stages in one’s life? But I do, and I have so many fond memories with him and his family.
The Evans family (dun nuh nuh nuh ::snap snap::). My parents and I have tried to find them again. She was my first and second grade teacher and I had a crush on her son Matthew, lol. We went to church with them and hung out with them lots (carpool!). I remember I sat on Jennifer's birthday cake on the way to school and she hated me after that. We went to their house for SuperBowl one year because they lived in PA and the Steelers had made it. It was an all day long event and we had been hanging out in this abandoned house in a field the whole time. It got dark and we were running around with flashlights. We saw lights come on in the abandoned house and freaked out a little, us girls anyway. The boys went to investigate and a shoe, among other things, was promptly thrown out the front door chasing us all away. Back then we thought it was a ghost. Now that I'm older and [ahem] wiser, I know that it was probably just a homeless person wishing us pesky kids would leave his safe haven alone.
Amber Levoe and Kim Toben….Now those were some awesome friends. Kim and I talked probably up until I was 12, about a year before moving to NC. I’ve tried to find both of them. I think I may have found Amber on MySpace and tried to add her and was denied, ouch. I haven’t been able to find Kim though, makes me sad. I remember going to Kim’s house probably about once a year. My mom would meet her mom in New Market and I’d climb in the van with her and her sisters and we would play a game that consisted of us trying and stake claims on horses that we passed by on our way to her house. We would swim in her pool and hang out with Sophia and Danny and try and avoid Lauren. I remember we played truth or dare one time and I had to kiss Danny and it was the most awful kiss ever because I was nervous and made a smacking noise with my lips lol (Have no fear, I’m much better now, just ask Brad). I also remember going to Kim’s house a few days after I blew an egg up in my face (another post, another day) and I had a scab on my eye and it was definitely ugly.
Amanda was, is, and will always be my best friend on some kind of level. Sure things have changed, but there is too much there. And umm, we’re family so I guess that kind of helps lol. We’ve gone through a lot together, and we’ve gone through a lot separate. But one thing is certain; we’re always on each other’s minds and we’ll always love each other unconditionally. Not to be cliché, but she is the sister I never had.
I guess because I’ve mentioned Amanda and Luke I should go ahead and mention the others, even if I do see them every year. Timmy, Amy, Melody, and Julia….I’ve known them for about 18 years now and they are officially my longest friends ever, those friendships I cherish and love being able to see change and grow.
Some other friendships from Liberty that deserve mention are Brianna, Brandon, and Chris. I will never understand what the heck was going on in my 13 year old brain to call a 19 year old man and tell him I was in love with him…uh that one definitely goes down in the charts as top 5 regrets (no I’m not embarrassed, that’s just sunburn…no really…)
My friendships and experiences from NLCS probably deserve an entry all to themselves.


I’ve only written about a small portion of my life and only a few people so far, and I’ve barely even scratched the surface. This will probably be an on-going list broken into individual entries. I guess LiveJournal beats out a blog if only for the wonderful ability to put long entries behind a cut.

Still to come….
· Stories and friends from New Life Christian School
· Friends from CHS, GCF, and Capital
· Friends that have remained and I cherish
· The hilarious story of how an egg gave me a scab on my eye.
· While I’m at it with the food stories, I’ll tell ya about the cinnamon one too.